life | should-less

wow. my last post was almost a year ago, & since then so much has happened. so much has changed, & i'm not really sure where to start or if i even want to share. however, i have been eager to post for the last couple of months, but the times that i usually have the urge is when i'm at work. & unfortunately, blogger happens to be blocked, which is a pain, because although i continue to write about my private thoughts in my journal, there have been plenty of times where i've wanted to journal publicly.

so, to get the flow going again, i decided to come back addressing self-care, & how a lack of it can really drain your battery. since 2016 i have been on a work high, & it's not because i want to be, but because work just happens to follow me. i know you're probably thinking...how does work exactly follow someone, & why are you complaining? since i started my own business, i have had four other jobs in rotation. one only lasted 3 months because internship, my 9-5 & kaybella were keeping me busy & kicking my ass. my internship was mandatory, so i had to complete that in order to graduate. plus, it was extremely fun, but my body didn't like the the fact that i was working 7 days straight for a year. 

my mood got so bad, that everyone around me was noticing the changes. i was always tired & always mad. at one point my supervisor told me to drop in hours, & that i didn't want to do, because i was enjoying the lifestyle that i had at the time. not to mention i had a two week trip to africa at the end of the year planned (more on that later). did i mention that i was also in the process of buying a home at the end of 2016? talk about added stress. to top it all off, i had severe bronchitis for 6 months. it was so bad, i was in & out of the hospital monthly, taking different medications just to see what would not work, constantly coughing, throwing up & not getting any sleep. life definitely became a roller coaster once i started internship. it's like a switch was flipped, & i went from happy one minute to hell the next (then back again).

needless to say, i made it out of the storm. i graduated with my master's in december of 2017 after just landing from africa, & walking into two new contract jobs. i ended the last quarter of the year with my biggest kaybella sells to date & things were beginning to slow down again. however, the end of december rolled around, & work increased again. along with work increasing, so are my headaches & level of fatigue. lately there have been periods during the week, where i go from happy to a very low mood due to fatigue & one job in particular. 

so, at the beginning of april, i decided to start having "should-less" days. days where i do what makes me happy, which sometimes includes nothing at all. i have cut back my not so fun workload (i.e. contract jobs & 9-5), & instead spend time doing what i love more (i.e. kaybella, quality time w/friends & family or sleep). i have started taking hot yoga classes, hiking & biking since it's warm, epsom salt baths (the best), completing DIY projects around my spot, attending church more & actually going to bed when my body is asking me to shut down. another thing i am pushing myself to do, is more weekend getaways, that are cheap & don't require too much activity. 

my current slogan at work is to take it easy. not to stress about work or the people who work there. lol. i tell myself that everything is temporary, & that this is only a step closer to what i really should be doing. so, to sum it all up - DO LESS! have a day where you do nothing but wake up, eat, be a bum (i.e. binge watch shows, take a nap and/or relax w/a good book), then go back to sleep. i promise you, once you take a time out once or twice a week, you'll begin to feel a lot better.

until next time,

kay.